Baxters Poem

You may have already seen this poem.  My husband wrote it just days after the accident and I submitted it to TriPawds, and I know they reposted it.

My poor husband beat himself up about taking him out off leash that night.  And I know he saw the impact, a sight he says he’ll never be free from.

About Baxter poem:
It wasn’t your fault, Dadda
It was me who wanted to play
With my bestest dog friend Boomer
In the worstest, bestest way
It wasn’t your fault, Dadda
I was only having fun
I can’t be leashed up all my life
I have to play and run
It wasn’t your fault, Dadda
you saw me running free
And running strong and running fast
How simple life can be
It wasn’t your fault, Dadda
How could you have known?
That a car would come and bite me
And break up all my bones
But you scooped me up and saved me
And you hugged and held me tight
And I knew it at that moment
I was gonna be alright
You took me to the doctors
They fixed my mouth and then
They put me back into your arms
And you took me home again
I know I have to go back
And they’re gonna take my leg
But I want you to believe me
And you don’t like me to beg
It wasn’t your fault, Dadda!!
And I think that you’ll be awed
When you see me love you twice as much
Even when I’m just 3 pawed

The driver who hit Baxter

First things first, we place no blame on the driver for the accident. Baxter ran into the road. There’s really nothing he could have done differently to prevent it.

BUT……. I do have an issue with a few other things.

We never spoke the night of the incident, although he did stop.  We scooped Baxter up and ran for the vet. The next morning, about 15 hours after the accident, the driver pulled in our driveway. At that moment Baxter was on the operating table. I got very emotional as I thought how shooken up and concerned this man must be. He must care…. he came back right?

I started crying telling him BAXTER was going to be ok and we understand he couldn’t have stopped and we hoped he didn’t feel any responsibilities.  He cut me off when I said Baxter was going to ok and said ” Well that’s good for him, but you need to look at the damage on my car and who’s going to pay for it?”

At that moment, my insides turned. It killed me a little. I was wrong, he didn’t care.  He never asked how he was, what’s his name, are we ok, and even not being his fault….. the word sorry was obviously never to be heard. He asked my husband to come outside and look at his car. That’s all he cared about.

Apparently, the responsibility is ours. Our property (Baxter) was not on a leash and caused damage to his personal property.

But who is so cold and uncaring to come back looking for money? If I hit someone’s pet, I’d be at their house asking if they were ok? And  accident happened. We’ve paid emotionally and financially more than he’ll ever realize.

He’s 85…… I’m 41. If he wants money from me for damages to his car, fine. But I’m not gonna make it easy. Take me to court buddy. And we all know how slow the wheels of justice turn……

Photos of Baxter (pre-surgery)

Just standing around, stalking the cat!
His pond he loves to visit
Say cheese! Pre jaw surgery so not sure how smile will be!
His bed…. his old bed. We need an orthopedic one I guess.
Baxters 1st Birthday!!!
I’m a scary crocodile for Halloween!! Boo!!
Baxters 1st Birthday collage
Hanging at the park with Mom
“I have no idea what happened….maybe the cat?”
Sitting on tables is fresh BAXTER!!
Puppy Baxter
He loves his toys, just a few months old
He came home and curled up like a little nugget ❤️

The story so far…. (Part 1)

December 9, 2016 – After being hit by a car we rushed Baxter to the nearest after hours emergency vet a few towns away. I knew he was hurt but as I cradled him I was optimistic as he was breathing and his body seemed intact. After taking him in they came back to tell us his jaw was broken and he would need surgery first thing in the morning, his lungs were bruised, and they weren’t sure why but he wasn’t using his left front leg but the X-ray was clear. They suggested it may be badly sprained, so they splinted. Honestly, at that point his leg seemed the least of our concerns.  We were grateful, he was gonna be ok. Surgery was scheduled for the morning.

 

December 10, 2016 – Instead of feeling relief that my favorite boy was going to be ok, I spent the night up worried about finances. The estimate for his surgery was $3,500. Two weeks before Christmas and I don’t know about other people, but we didn’t just have $3,500 extra. Am I bad dog Mom because I wasn’t prepared for this? In an ideal world we’d all have a nest egg for vet bills, but we didn’t. In the end, we emptied savings, cut some corners and told our family we weren’t celebrating Christmas this year and came up with the money. It wasn’t easy, but more than worth it. He’s my baby.

Baxter came home that night, still groggy from anesthesia. In retrospect, he came home way too early. He should have stayed another day. He couldn’t stand on his own, he was incontinent, taking shallow breaths, we were up all night worried watching him breath. But again, the leg was splinted and we were told it was fine. He wasn’t using it because it was splinted and some dogs just won’t use a splinted leg. His jaw was wired to hold it in place. He was on a soft food only diet.

 

December 11, 2016 –  He was still groggy and not himself. I was beginning to wonder if he had suffered some brain damage or neuro damage based on his behavior but I really think he just needed more recovery time. We were picking him up to carry outside to use the bathroom as he still couldn’t walk. But he could no stand, albeit a bit wobbly. He started eating good, he had never had canned food before as we only serve dry so this was a treat he enjoyed.

 

December 12, 2016 – In an ideal world we could pause life and care for our loved ones for as long as needed. But in my reality, I just landed a new, high energy fast paced, well paying job…. I need to go to work as does my husband. But it’s obvious Baxter can’t be left alone. He’s still requiring assistance with basic tasks such as eating and toileting. My husband stayed home from work to care for him and bring him to the vet as something is clearly wrong with his leg. It’s like a limp noodle, it just drags there. He makes no effort to use it. I’m no vet but I know it’s not a sprain.

I get a call at work from my husband. His voice is cracking….. I know. In my heart I knew all along. He suffered a Brachial Plexus Avulsion. It’s bad. He needs his front left leg amputated.

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